sorry to stop you,
I know we haven’t met yet.
I mean, you haven’t met this me yet;
the me in this moment
with the moment we haven’t met
and the version of you and I we’ve yet to meet.
Let me slow down a second,
should I greet you with a hug?
I don’t want to make this awkward;
in truth we’ve met before, but not like this.
Last time I tried this you were pissed,
missed the significance of the occasion, of each other.
We could already have been lovers;
the universe is always at our fingertips
but then you kissed that person you were dancing with
and I realised you were kind of busy
and probably weren’t in the right place to be interested.
It’s okay if you don’t remember it,
we’ve all done shit like that before;
hoping there is more to life
but pass on all the stuff
we think we aren’t good enough for.
Settling for second best
like that night’s love bites on your neck.
I hope this doesn’t come across too forward
but it could have been me caressing your skin instead,
and I know just how you’d like it –
head resting on the pillow next to mine,
one hand each entwined,
the others sharing a pizza,
thin crust, extra mushrooms and garlic butter,
hot water bottle under the covers.
If only you’d seen me back there,
but your glazed eyes stared right through my body.
I guess it’s not easy to believe sometimes
that I exist as an entity somewhere,
but I do. I’m in your next breath,
the place you’re going from the one you just left,
I’m in the words in the text you’re about to send,
I’m the one that cleans up your mess.
I just wanted to try and introduce myself again
and I promise I’m not a stalker,
in fact it’s you that follows me until the end.
I’m not being shallow, it’s going to happen,
and I know we both like a challenge
but spending that long so close together
I thought it might be better to be friends.
I feel like a lot could depend on it;
the world’s got us down as a force to be reckoned with,
like we’ve got the power to change things around,
because you’re me, before you were you,
and I’m the next you that you’ll be after now.
It sounds complicated when I say it like that,
put simply, I’m here as the next step on your path
and I’m on your side.
So those thoughts you have are lies,
you know the ones,
where your mind tries to convince you of your lack of value,
like you don’t deserve the space
the universe creates for you to thrive?
When you wonder about the purpose of being alive,
try thinking of me next time,
because this moment of your life is perfect,
and how you are is perfectly fine.
If you were waiting for a sign then let me be it,
there’s nowhere else you need to be
because look, I’m here in the moment ahead of you
and I’m telling you it works out eventually.
I’ll make sure of it, trust me, we’ve got this,
all rivers must lead back to the sea
so we’re always flowing in the right direction,
every moment an opportunity
to guide us closer to the source.
So please don’t ignore what you have in the present;
we’ve all the time in the world for future intentions
but now, you can choose to just pause.
Forget all the ways you think past you fucked up
because we’ve got moment after moment after moment to make it up
and when we keep moving through each moment
then all that pent up energy gets unstuck,
because with each blink we can redecorate the walls of our mind.
Modify our thoughts with a paintbrush and colour them kind,
till our total existence mirrors a kaleidoscopic rainbow in the sky;
living practiced in the length of each heartbeat passing by.
Each pulse a chance to shift the atmospheric hue,
to weather love for ourselves and each other
like there’s both nothing and every single moment to lose
because someone else might just be having a tough moment too,
and on that note, this is where I leave you.
If only you knew what’s in store,
maybe this is the sneak preview you weren’t even looking for
but for now I’ve done my bit.
I brought you the lesson, I made sure you heard it;
tried to make it a message you wouldn’t forget,
but now that we’ve finally met,
I need to go and prepare for our next moment’s debut.
I’ve got a feeling it’s a life changing one to come into.